I figured the most interesting way to start a post about insecurities would be listing my own so here goes nothing! Around what age did you become self conscious about yourself? For me it was middle school. Eighth grade I wondered why are my arms were so hairy.. I noticed my friends were on the same boat but in my eyes mine were bushes. I shaved it off, weeks went by and I continued shaving. Until I asked myself what is the point to keep shaving if it's going to keep coming back? Am I gonna shave my arms for the rest of my life? Absolutely not..I let it go.
My hair..where do I start?! I was never comfortable with having my hair down unless I just got out the shower. For years Sunday to Sunday my hair was slicked back into a ponytail or bun.
It wasn't until my second to last day of senior year I decided to detach myself from the ponytail nightmare. I went to hair cuttery sat in the chair and told the hair stylist to give me a mohawk.
Each hair falling down my shoulders represented each day I wouldn't be able to do a ponytail.
I was ecstatic stepping out of the chair I felt like a different person. Today my curls are a part of me and a reminder that the way you see yourself can change.
I chew my fingernails until there's almost nothing left. Sometimes I feel like my face is too big.
Under my butt cheek I have a huge birthmark. For years every time someone asked me if I could change something about myself that would be the first thing to come to mind. I felt like every time it showed people were staring at it or me. Since it's three shades darker than my actual skin color. My mother told me it's because God wasn't sure which skin color he wanted me to be. I was running for white and slipped on my butt in the dark. She always knows what to say for me to embrace being different. That's what I ended up doing.
Imagine how monotonous mother earth would be if we were all identical. The grey area we all love to put ourselves in was nonexistent. All we know is black and white. Not only appearance wise are we identical but also our mindsets. From which religion is best to abortions. I want you to think of a time you've stood up for what you believe in. Relive the emotions you felt after.. brave, assertive, determined, optimistic. Would we be able to experience those emotions if we were all a mirror of each other? There would be no outcast, rebel, leader. Where would our society be without them? Or the open minded souls curious to discover the unknown.
Insecurities are what you make of them. Never give them the power of making you feel unworthy or not good enough. You are a one of one so act like it!